KEMBARA SURI

Assalamualaikum…

Salam Maulidur Rasul Semua…

Salam Hari Kekasih Allah...

Walaupun sudah lepas beberapa hari, tetapi masih lagi ada siaran-siaran tv yang menayangkan program ceramah tentang sirah Nabi Muhammad s.a.w, nabi kesayangan kita semua. Alhamdulillah.

In Shaa Allah.

Sayu hati setiap kali mendengar ustaz-ustaz di kaca TV menceritakan kisah-kisah suka duka Rasulullah s.a.w.

Sedih. Dalam menghayati setiap patah kata-kata yang diucap. Membayangkan betapa peritnya pengorbanan Rasulullah s.a.w dalam usaha untuk menegakkan syiar Islam yang agung ini. Allahu Akbar. Subhanallah…

Membayangkan diri ini, jika diletakkan pada zaman itu. Tidak pasti adakah diri ini tergolong dalam kumpulan Islam yang baru ingin bersinar atau tergolong di kalangan kaum-kaum musyrikin yang kencang membuat ancaman kepada kumpulan Islam. Mampukah diri ini berjuang mempertahankan Islam atau diri ini adlah orang yang akan menentang dan melakukan kekejaman terhadap orang Islam. Allahu Akbar. Timbul perasaan takut di dalam hati ini. Takut untuk membayangkannya. Ya Allah!!!

Ingin sekali berjumpa dengan Rasulullah s.a.w. Bagaimanakah rupa Rasulullah s.aw. agaknya. Mesti raut wajah sinar bercahaya dan tenang hati memandang. Budi pekerti sungguh mulia, kasih sayangnya tiada tandingan.

Di dalam diri setiap ummat Islam telah ada Rasulullah s.a.w. 

Telah ditinggalkan kepada kita, kasih sayangnya, akhlaknya, Cuma kita perlu mempertahankannya dan menghidupkannya melalui sunnah yang telah ditinggalkan untuk panduan kita.

Andai kata ditakdirkan ajal menjemput cepat atau lambat, Ya Allah, matikan lah aku dalam agama-Mu, Islam.

Assalamualaikum

Aku nak resign...

Membuak-buak perasaan nak resign...surat resignation sudah siap tulis...

Tapi... 

Tidak boleh hendak resign lagi sebab nanti tidak ada kerja lagi...

Dulu masa kerja di office lama hendak resign...beria-ia hendak terima offer kerja di sini...

My sista’ engagement day…

selesai sudah majlis pertunangan along ku pada 06/06/09...alhamdulillah..
majlis diketuai oleh atuk ku dan pak uda(belah lelaki)
sedikit gambar2 yg disnap...tgok jelah...

Assalamualaikum

 

Birthday cake from my family…

Hadiah drp Dr. Kan…huhu…

Haluuu...

hehehe...saje jer hari minggu xder kerja mai ofis nih...for my next entry...last week I ade jemputan kenduri kawen one of my fren...ermm...budak geo yang pertama kawen nih(batch aku lah)...pembukaan bak kata org...huhu...dah lepas dah sorang...kita tunggu jemputan kedua...siapakan org yg bakal bakal mengikut jejak itu...kita tunggu....adakah saya???

pengantin berbaju oren...kena pulak dengan baju yang I pakai tu...ikut tema la pulak..hehehehe... anyway tahniah kepada sang raja sehari... sempat jugak pengantin mem"puhh" kat ktorg nih...ambil badi/berkat kate nya...hahahaha...
a few friends yang datang pada majlis tu...sempat juga lah berjumpa dan berborak...maklumlah lame tak jumpa..even aku bukan lah bagus dlm skill berbual-bual...diam lebih baik...hehehe...tp seronok jugak jumpa kawan2...seronok tgk diorg nih...ade yang makin kurus dan ade yang makin tembam...but one of my frens said that I jer yang maintain...wahhh..seronok...tp maintain kurus ker...maintain tembam..yg tu...I'm not sure...hahaha...yang penting seronok tgk kwn2 gumbira dgn life masing2...but, do I happy wif my life??of course I do...

Yesterday, I got a new computer...happy....happy...happy...every thing became faster..faster and faster....I'm happy again...happy...happy...

No time to wait...It's time to explorace...and I got something to share with you all...after I open sample pictures folder in this computer and I've see very beautiful, nice, cold, and natural view..

...geodiversity...

hornbill... winter leaves...nice on sight... ....the fall water or waterfall....

::Confusion and I::

Alhamdulillah….Finally, I have settle and submit the application to further my study (MSc. Engineering Geology). Hopefully, I will stand with the decision that I made till the end. Hehe..I know that, I am easily to change mind at anytime. I am not good decision maker and I cannot stand with that…Bad me.

By the way, I have 5 months left to think about this. To continues my study or working? I am not sure yet. Just like my friend said yesterday, “Sue, you have 5 months to think this. If, in this period you did not have any job offer, you should further your study. It is good for you”. Errmm..I am still doubt with it…Please Allah…Help me. Give me your strongest. Give your Ar-Rahman and Ar-Rahim. I am really, really need your guidance. Please show me the ways. Ameen.

Yesterday, I am going to Geology Department to see my lecturers and try to get them as my references for master’s application form. Unfortunately, I am just doing masters by coursework. Actually, I put my hope to doing masters in research but my lecturer does not have any project to support my research. If I really want to do my own research, I need to use my own money. And honestly, I do not have any money. Too bad... Pity me.

Sometimes, I always think that people around me (others faculty student) very lucky, they have chance to do their research because their lecturers have lot of project and budget to support them. I am very jealous to them. But, it is okay. May be it not my time and may be Allah have a good plan to me. That is why He tests me. He just wants to know how much, how longer, I can stand with His tests. I am grateful with that and I hope He will give me something that really, really meaningful to me. Thank You Allah. Only He knew it. And I am prayed for it. InsyaAllah.

So, for this moment I just continue my contract as a research assistant until July. Then, if I am lucky, if I got offer to further study, I just go on with it. I am just can prays for it. And only Allah can help me. I let it to Him.

Actually, I still confuse with course that I applied. Either MSc. Engineering Geology or MSc. Engineering and Environment Geophysics are both good programme. If I take Engineering geology it is good for me because I am major in Engineering Geology during my first degree. It is an advantage for me and helps me score in this subject but if I take course Geophysics it is quite difficult for me because my result for this subject is not good enough. So, I need to work harder to make it better. For both programme has potential in industry, either oil and gas or construction industry.

Last but not least, I hope I can do better than before. I need to redeem back my mistakes that I have done. I prayed for my success and I knew that Allah will protect me. He knows everything. InsyaAllah..Ameen.

Nasib baik ada kawan seperti Siti ini, banyak belajar daripadanya.